Tomorrow is my off day but i m not sure of what i m going to do. Even Rinku mama is not here.
The extravagance of hope has come in direct conflict with the compulsion of present day reality. The acrimonious realities of life have dawned on me. It was not as if i was completely ignorant but yes i used to evade such questions. But when things stare right in ur face, u have to address them. I m looking for answers n a leeway, i fear if it's a corect word to use.
Present tense, Future indefinite,,,What to do? Where shall I go? Am i wasting myself? I m perturbed. I can't lose the essence of lie. I have to be something but how? OK tomorrow i will get a full day to think over it.
Optimism is not my favourite word though i treasure it secretly. I praise the effects of this word clandestinely. What does it reflect? Low level of confidence? I m intimidated because TIME is not on my side. It's running out. My destiny will be decided by 'what i m'? People would never know the intricacies that i harbour.
Going to home to contemplate over these matters,,,