Tides of troubles

Tides of troubles, it seems, have broken on the shores of my peaceful existence. I wonder why all troubles and tribulations strike at the same time..

tension in office, an ego clash in the family n now a "mild rebuke"...all add up to "throw normal life out of gear"...

It's almost 3:30 in the morning and sleep is elusive ... seems a banshee keeps wailing over my head all the time... there is no light at the end of tunnel.. the reality of present has stripped the future of all its fantasies..

one has to "legitimise" the present to seek "refuge" in future... but the present is playing a decieving elf.

Looking at myself, i can't help but recall the "deterrence model" proposed by Jean Boudrillard.. why do we need money? Most of us would say -- for a better quality of life.No, for maintaining a social and cultural distinction. Objects have no "natural use value" contray to what Marx thought. So my position in society will be justified by the salary I get, the kind of distinctions I maintain.

If everyone is driving a maruti 800, i should have a zen...